I feel a bit funny posting here as I consider myself to be very lucky. Unlike most women, I have not ever experienced any trouble with getting or bringing a
pregnancy to term, until now. I have had 2 previous pregnancies and am the proud mother to two beautiful little boys, ages 3 & 1. My third and final
pregnancy was not so successful. I will not share my long story as I do not wish to offend those many women who do have so much trouble in having
children...but I found out last week that I was indeed pregnant, about 7 weeks and that I was having a miscarriage. I suffered enormous amounts of blood loss,
so much so that I passed out and went to the ER. I had a D&C at 1:00 in the morning and returned home the next day. I am physically feeling great, but
can't shake a general sadness, especially knowing that we were not trying to get pregnant, and will not be trying again. We had both decided shortly after
our 2nd son was born that our family was complete. I can't help but feel that, even though I did not know I was pregnant at the time the miscarriage
began, somewhere in my unconscious, I caused this because we were not planning another baby. I know that that sounds horrible, and I can assure you that had I
not miscarried, this 3rd baby would have been so welcome and so incredibly loved. I can't help thinking that this was my chance at a girl
and I've lost it....
