On Dec 2 2013, I went in to go and see my baby. It was just a normal check up to see the heartbeat. I should have been 11 weeks. My Dr started looking at our baby and automatically seemed off. We were looking at our child. We were so happy to be able to see our new baby for the first time. The Dr than told me that our baby was too small and that they had no heartbeat... I felt like a piece of me was ripped out. I was staring at my baby on the monitor. All I can think was that's my baby and I killed them. They than told me that our child was becoming infected and that I needed to have an immediate d and c. It just seemed unreal. I just wanted our kid so bad. Now this lady keeps telling me that I should name it but I feel like it would only make me feel worse.