Ivy Grace sweet girl you would be 8 this year! Such big plans dad and I had for you! I carried you for 7 months and just knew you were ok. For I long time I blamed myself I shouldn't have cleaned the windows or floated down that river on vacation. Maybe if I had just been more careful! I had to write to you today sweet girl I find myself searching faces for what you would look like would you be blond curly hair like your older sisters or a brunette like me? We would have had so much fun together I love being a girls mom! How do you like your name I was determined to be sure you were the first to write your name in preschool you are the only child I named all by myself! I got your present when I came home from the hospital and I have to say it did help me deal withour loss of you! Some people say it was just a fluke that all that wild ivy grew in the flower bed that had not been planted yet and the white blooms were from you I know thank you! I will never stop thinking of you I know someday I will see you in heaven I want you to know you changed my life I gave up my career and went into a job that helps people it was less money but I knew I had to do better morally and it has richly blessed my life I have helped grant 17 wishes for elderly before they passed on and I thought of you every time. At the time I lost you I didn't know why God would do that to me but now I do others needed me in there lifethat doesn't mean that I would not give anything to have had the chance to raise you it just means that you for the short time I carried and lost you gave my life meaning. Well I hear your big sisters pulling up outside and they will think I'm depressed and we can't have that last thing mom needs now is lectures from them! Do me a favor watch over them there driving is a constant source of my fears! Until I see you in heaven always yours my baby momma!