Hi to everyone here. I am new to this message board, actually I am new to the whole message board thing. I really just want to feel like somone else has been through what I have been through. I feel so alone on this whole journey. My husband and I started trying to get pregnant as soon as we got married, which was in 2008. We have been successful three times but lost all three of them. The most recent was October of 2011. The last pregnancy was concieved with help from an infertility specialist and we concieved twins. Unfortunately one of them stayed up in the tube and we lost both babies as a result. It just seems like no one understands what I am going through. People try to be supportive but don't really know how. I want to be a mom so bad! The hardest part is I see pregnant women every where. As if having miscarrages wasn't bad enough I work with a lady my same age, 27, that got pregnant the same exact time I did but got to keep her baby and now I get to watch her basically go through my pregnancy. I don't know how I am going to deal when her due date comes as it is the same month I would have been due with my twins. I also have two very good friends that just found out they are pregnant but didn't tell me. I understand they don't know what to say and I am very jealous but it just seems to hurt that they didn't feel the need to tell me. Now I am dealing with depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I am seeing a therapist and taking medication but still feel like I need to reach out to someone who has been where I am at now. I really just want someone to talk too.