i was 5 and half months pregnant.i was having a boy whom made me crave chocolate 24/7 ha..
for those months i felt what love truly meant,how you can love a soul that you've never met,how you wanna give your whole being to this little one that was inside you.
i felt him growing,i felt him in the best and worst moments..
it was magic,that grew me to faith...it was him that changed me truly changed me..
it'll be a year coming up that ive been with out my baby layne rory.
all i can say is im still so lost buy yet complete in my hopes that i'll see him one day
i have a poem for you ladies it helped me..i shed lots of tears but it helped i hope itll do something for you too.
with all my love missy.
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing Here
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who
had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons there are through
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates waiting for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start