I have 2 healthy kids, a 15 year old daughter and 2 year old son. last summer i had a miscarriage at 11w2d, but i know the baby was gone before that because what came out did not resemble a fetus of any age at all. i didn't have any symptoms of pregnancy the whole time. i thought i was lucky, but afer miscarrying i knew it was a sign of problems. i am now 11w1d pregnant, and i know my baby is gone. i have had 2 ultrasounds, and the heartbeat is a weak 54bpm. i go for another one tomorrow. i know the baby will have died, i can just feel it. i don't understand why this is happening again. i am so angry and i'm sad, but i'm pushing my sadness away and just trying to be hardened because i don't want the unbearable heartbreak i had last time. i know it's not right, but i'm livid that people like michelle duggar can have a baby every 10 months for 20 years, but i can't get a 3rd. i know i'm lucky to have my 2, and i don't take that for granted. i just don't understand why my body stopped working on me.