My name is patty. I am 26 with two boys. I just lost my baby a month ago. I was 12 weeks along. They said my baby didn't develop past 4 weeks. I'm having a hard time understanding why. Why now? Why this child? I started recently started spending money like crazy. I had to turn over the credit card to my husband, because I have spent $2,000 in the last month. My doctor suggested that I talk to someone, because I am a boiling pot.Now that I have had my first period it has just been a horrid reminder. Nobody I know has had a loss like this. I use to see this happen in movies and hear about it and think oh thats awful. I didn't fully understand how bad it was until it was on my door step. I feel like I am all alone. My husband has tried very hard to comfort me, but I haven't really let anyone in. I think this is the most I have ever talked about it. HELP!