i just had my first miscarriage in my first pregnancy after 8 weeks. It happened on 6-19-10. I was at my parents for fathers day and went to the bathroom. I saw the blood and immediately freaked out. I went crying to my mom and she kept telling me i was just spotting but i knew the truth. Then she asked if the baby was still in the toilet and i realized i hadnt even checked. That made me feel so horrible. My whole family took me to the hospital where my thoughts were confirmed. The nonstop bleeding is what scared me the most. And when the ultrasound technician didnt say a word the whole half hour i was in there i knew it was over. i stayed at my parents house for a week after that which helped so much. Not having to see the baby stuff right away was needed. I've been having trouble with my thoughts and emotions. Now everything is hitting me. Can i have children? What will i do if i can't? I thought this was the one thing in life i could do and it turns out i was wrong about that. Why can people that smoke, drink, and do drugs have perfectly healthy babies, but when i do everything i can to ensure the baby is healthy it passes away? I'm really struggling.