I just miscarried this past weekend. I passed my baby in the toilet of a Coldstone Creamery while my 2 year old looked on. I wanted to grab the fetus, but didn't because I didn't want to give my 2 year old the wrong idea. I had been spotting with some blood, but I wasn't prepared as to what happened. I was in so much pain Saturday night that I threw up. I wasn't prepared for all of the blood or feeling like I want to cry at everything. Noone tells you what it is going to be like to go to the bathroom and be reminded of what happened all day long. I have a lot of guilt. We have three beautiful children and this was our "surprise" baby. 2 months ago I would have been content with what I have, but now I really want that fourth baby. My husband is sad, but wants us to go back to our old plans. The baby was only 2 months old, I can't believe how it has changed my life so much. When does it start getting better?