On Sep. 3 my husband and I went into our routine 12 week appointment to find out that we had a missed miscarriage. Amazingly I miscarried naturally 3 days later. I took it pretty hard and emotionally it has been the most difficult thing that I have been through, but overall I feel like I am coping alright. One of the hardest things right now is seeing my sister who is also pregnant. We were due with in a few weeks of each other and being my only sister we were sooo excited to share in this experience. Everytime I see her I think about how I should be looking like that. I literally have to work up to look at her past her neck when I first see her. This past weekend I saw her at our parents house and I felt like it has not even been 2 months and it feels like everyone has forgotten that I am supposed to look like her and be going through a pregnancy also. It does not help that no one else in my family has experienced a miscarriage, not that I would wish it on anyone, but it is nice to feel like you are truely understood. I am worried that I am always going to look at her baby and think about how I should have one that same exact age. I am scared that I am not going to love my nephew because he is always going to be a reminder of what should have been. The other thing that has been bothering me is that everytime I see a pregnant women (and yes, they are EVERYwhere) I literally think to myself, "I hate you." I feel like I can not stop it and these are awful things to be thinking!