I had a miscarriage at the end of January, was 7 weeks pregnant. Have been very depressed for a while and had to take time off work. Have now just started feeling a bit better again gone back to work and feel more able to cope. Desperately wanted to be pregnant again, and have just found out I am 5 weeks pregnant. I never expected I'd get pregnant so soon, it took us a year and a half the first time. I should be overjoyed, but instead I feel terrified. I don't want to go through this again. My mum tells me to just be careful, but I was careful last time. Also I can't help still thinking about the child I lost and feel sorry that that one didn't live. My emotions are so mixed and I just want to be glad I'm pregnant and enjoy it, but I'm struggling. I'm sorry if this message is painful for anyone, I know several of you really want to be pregnant also, and I do know how lucky I am.