Hi there, my name is Trish and I am 29 years old. My husband and I got pregnant in January of this year. We were so excited that we told all of our family and
most of our friends. At 11 weeks I started spotting, went in for an ultrasound and there was a sac, but no baby. I went through a natural miscarriage about a
week after the ultrasound. We had the pleasure of having to tell ALL those people that we had a miscarriage. That wasn't very fun. Most people's
reactions were, "I am so sorry." This reaction was nice and all, but at first I didn't want people to feel "sorry" for us because we
weren't feeling sorry for ourselves.
Now, I am going through the spectrum of emotions. I think the hardest part is I feel alone in all of this. No one close to me has ever gone through a miscarriage and while my husband, family and friends try to help, nothing they do or say makes me feel that much better. I am an eternally optimistic and overall happy person. On the outside I have been acting like everything is fine so my loved ones don't worry about me, but on the inside I know I am a little broken. Finally after a bottle of wine, I admitted to my husband that I am not as OK with everything as I seem. I know he's worried about me and wants to "fix" me, but neither of us know how to do that. I think just letting out my thoughts/feelings with people who actually know first hand how I am feeling is a good way to heal.
Other things that aren't making this situation any easier is that we bought a four-bedroom house the same week we found out I was pregnant, anticipating we would need lots of bedrooms for all our kiddos. I actually miscarried right after we moved. Now, I am in the huge house all day long (I work from home) and frankly it's really depressing. I closed the door to the nursery because the empty room makes me sad. Lastly, my husband's best friend and his wife are pregnant (due in Aug). Seeing them is super hard b/c they have what we lost. All this stuff that I didn't think would bother me, is really starting to stir up some emotions.
Anybody that has some words of wisdom or is feeling similar stuff, I would love to chat.
Now, I am going through the spectrum of emotions. I think the hardest part is I feel alone in all of this. No one close to me has ever gone through a miscarriage and while my husband, family and friends try to help, nothing they do or say makes me feel that much better. I am an eternally optimistic and overall happy person. On the outside I have been acting like everything is fine so my loved ones don't worry about me, but on the inside I know I am a little broken. Finally after a bottle of wine, I admitted to my husband that I am not as OK with everything as I seem. I know he's worried about me and wants to "fix" me, but neither of us know how to do that. I think just letting out my thoughts/feelings with people who actually know first hand how I am feeling is a good way to heal.
Other things that aren't making this situation any easier is that we bought a four-bedroom house the same week we found out I was pregnant, anticipating we would need lots of bedrooms for all our kiddos. I actually miscarried right after we moved. Now, I am in the huge house all day long (I work from home) and frankly it's really depressing. I closed the door to the nursery because the empty room makes me sad. Lastly, my husband's best friend and his wife are pregnant (due in Aug). Seeing them is super hard b/c they have what we lost. All this stuff that I didn't think would bother me, is really starting to stir up some emotions.
Anybody that has some words of wisdom or is feeling similar stuff, I would love to chat.
