Hi Shelly, I'm sorry you went through this. Unlike you, I had a d&c, and I'm convinced that was the way to do it. It must have been so miserable having to do it the "natural" way. I understand the crying, I sometimes break down for no apparent reason. I think it's just something we have to go through, to greive our loss.
If it helps you, I found a song that REALLY helps me when I'm having a rough time. (Beware, it is a christian song). It's called "He Will Carry Me" by Mark Schultz. It's an incredible song, and even if you aren't very religious (I'm not either), it's worth a listen.

I'll be thinking of you, take care of yourself!
Stacey