Hi Kathy, I'm so sorry that this happened to you.
I've been doing many of the same things. When I get home from work, I usually curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep. Admittedly, I've felt much better since finding this site. I guess staying busy is a huge help for me.
I have a hard time with the pregnant lady at work. When I see her, I have to leave because I know I'll cry. I hope she doesn't notice, because I don't want her to feel guilty for still being pregnant. It's a hard thing to deal with.
I'll be thinking of you!
Stacey