Thank all of u for your replys n support... I will try staying with john as long as I can ...I have told him how important a family is to me n it doesn't seem to work ... N if this doesn't work then I know it wasn't meant to be ... I wanna say happy mothers day to all of u strong women who have went threw this really difficult time ... I'm proud to say that I will be getting a tattoo for my two babies as a present for myself for mothers day not only to signify my loss but all of our pain ... Thank u all again for taking the time to read my story u are all amazing people .... If I could do anything for any of u write me ... Cprincess121@gmail.com god bless u all