I don't think that there is any "normal" way to feel when something like this happens. Everyone grieves in their own way. We saw our baby lying there, motionless, with no heartbeat, at almost 13 weeks, on the computer screen during an ultrasound. That image is forever burned into my brain. . I think that if we wouldn't of seen that, that this would have been a little bit easier. Once you see, you believe its real, that there is really a little person growing inside of you.., you know. Don't feel bad, at all. Come here as often as you need. It does help.