Trish
I completely know what you mean about wanting to give yourself time before getting pregnant again. 2 days before my mc, my bf left me and told me he wanted nothing to do with me or this mc. It was so completely hard to go thru everything alone. So many people couldn't and wouldn't understand what I was going thru, some just turned their backs to me. My bf now wants me back and Idk if I can take him back after what he did to me. He has tried to even have makeup sex with me. The thought of sex absolutely terrifies me. I now constantly watch TLC's A Baby Story. Their was one couple who put it perfectly, and you even said it yourself. You can't enjoy the pregnancy because of the nerves and fears of losing your child again.
I also can't imagine going thru this whole process again. In about a week, it will have been 2 months since I lost my baby. I went to Build-A-Bear about a month ago and made a bear and named it after my baby (Dakota Bailey). Every time I look at the bear I just cry.
I hope everything goes well for you.
Kati