I know how insentive the hopsital can be. i started to have some bleeding in the middle of the night on saturday so i called the hospital and they said come in we will get you in sooner as you are pregnant. i arrived just a little after 4 pm to a waiting room of sleeping people i sat in the waiting room for 4 hours until i was seen at the er than they told me that i amy be to early in the pregnancy to hear the heart beat so i had a fetal assessment booked for the next day. Both the er DR and the nurse went over precentages of miscarriages in first pregnancy.

Went for the assessment adn it was bad news.. I was instructed to call my ob the next day as it was a holiday. That phone call was so painful as i had to explain to the nurse why i wanted my appointment moved up as i was hysterical. Then having to wait to see when they could fit me in. i went to the appointment the next day and checked in with a very rude receptionist who yelled at me to speak up as she could not hear me and she would not get up out of the chair. Than she indicated that she wanted to know who made the appointment and that she did not have a chart. i offered her my papers she declined and told me to go sit down. My appointment was for 3:15pm i was crying at this time and the worst part was that i was in a room full of pregnant women.

At 4:30 i saw a cleaning lady locking up the doors and i went to the reception to ask if i was going to be seen. I was also sitting under a camera and could see myself on the monitor. I was told that they misplaced my chart and that they did not know i was here.

i lost it i was crying and upset becausing i did not want to go back another day. The dr explained the options to me and asked me to choose which option i would like to have a natural miscarriage or D&C i was so upset about my treatment i decided to have the meds to help with the miscarriage but when talking about it later i was going to be painful and lots of cramping etc. Which everyone knows. So i decided to do the D&C walking in to the hopsital to give my name i busrt into tears before i made it into the doors. Cried during check in and actually cried during the procedure. On note though was that the head dr was working on me and i told her of my treatment from the moment i went into the er so it was good that maybe she will listen and change the treatment of the women who have had miscarriages as i do not think so of the other personal are very compassioniate.

i feel very empty and alone right now. also that i have failed and something is wrong with me.