Shelly ,
I don't know how much of a help I can be to you still being in so much pain about my own misscarriage. But my Hope to you is the physical pain will stop. I had a "natural" miscarriage with my first one last year and a D&C with the one I had this past January. Both are Soul crushing but the "natural" way was a little less emotionally painful for me. I'm soooo sorry for your loss and I'll pray for you. What does not kill us only makes us stronger.