Don't apologize for venting. As I am seeing, that is what this site it for!!! I found out this past monday that my baby was not viable and had a D&C this Saturday morning. I understand your feelings of resentment, a few women at my work are pregnant and I feel the same way. Im not sure how to help you as this is new to me as well. Just know that I, and everyone else on this site are here if you need us. Im here to listen whenever. I am so sorry that you are going through this!